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Friday, February 12, 2010
Ive realised recently hw completely vulnerable n weak i am...hey, im nt really saying im a sissy here but u do nd to know ur weakness to grow stronger right? well, im nt really a pussy who cant put up a fight, my weakness lies on the inside...u see, i've been thru some deep soul searching n realised that even though i've gt a tough body which cn withstand punches kicks n even steel bars thrown at me, i still have a weak spot i'd like to call sensitivity of the heart...unlike other guys, i tend to get emotionally unstable at times...a good example is, i still havnt gotten over the past...although i've been trying with my life, i still feel tt i love her...although i may try to hate, despise or curse her, it'll still go back with me thinking of the sweet times we had bfore...though it was short, i must admit it had a huge impact on my life...and with valentines day coming, i still cld not fall fer someone else no matter hw pretty they are..its like a curse...once in awhile i wld still wonder hw she's doing, wats going on in her life n all tt crap...in the end, i guess i was still craving fer her attention more than anithing else...
Another example wld be, i tend to think of others more than myself...it may be gd to some extent..but too much of a gd thing is a bad thing rite...i hate troubling others with my actions, so i tend to look out fer my own wrg doings and learn frm other people's mistake...if people were to trouble me, i wld probably juz grumble n complain abt it but if i were to somehw trouble others with my actions, i wld feel like my heart was tied to a giant anchor...enough to make me spill tears of blood...n tts hw much afraid i am to be of trouble to others... My aim will always be to get over these weaknesses...but unlike my body, i dont know hw to train my heart n mind to be tougher...i felt tt this topic has once been said in my blog but somehw nth's changed...even as im blogging im still thinking of her...sometimes i wonder y am i cursed with such a faithful heart...i wanted to grow up to be like other guys, maybe grow to be some playboy sweettalker who gets the girl he wants n goes fucking ard geylang when his bored or smth but i juz cant bring myself to do all those shit..zZz...1)i cant bring myself to break a girl's heart 2) geylang?? WTF... okok maybe tts abit too overboard but the point is i wanted grow up to be a friggin normal guy...zZz...not some fairytale jerk who gets all emo...zZzz...n nw i feel like i've juz posted some crap on my blog...i guess my head's all messed up...ahh well...i guess tts all fer the updates... Mucho Love, Le Nachos Labels: I nd a psychiatrist...a hot one at tt too...haha... PuNKRoCKBoi at 9:44 PM | Comment
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.:Its Who I aM:. 
Nicks:Ace, Punkrockboi, Le Nachos, Kai, Boi Ongbak Ngee Ann Poly, Bukit View Sec, Keming primary Came to tis cruel world on 22 July 1989 Thinks he's a ninja destined to save the world from an evil koala bear Cant stop chewing on his handphone Still thinks tat the moon is made of cheese Daydreams alot, so dun get angry if he's nt paying attention Overall, he's a happy kid doing wat he does best, watever tat is
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