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Thursday, August 25, 2011
For everything that i've done, i dont deserve this...to watch someone who grew up with me, became one of the most important person in my life, whom i've dedicated so much time, love and effort - walk away without saying so much as a goodbye to my face...completely abandoned for someone who probably made up a simple lie, and it doesnt stop there...in all those moments you needed someone, i was there trying...in all those times we spent, i took care of your simple needs without you even asking me to...for all the efforts i did to try to change to your liking, prayed for your happiness, loved you and being faithful to the very end, i got this - ignored, rejected and thrown aside like a piece of trash...was i really nothing at all to you? all those words you said about me before, they we're just lies? Some guy who sells drugs for a living, "cheated on you for another girl" suddenly comes back and says he was searching for you for the past 5 years and bla3 actually happenned...he's been your guy for a whole year and he doesnt know where you live? instead chose to wander around teck whye looking for someone he knows...and he's been searching for you for 5 years? It doesnt make any sense from the start, but who am i to say anything now...apparently you have a strong attraction to liars and i cant change that can i...i thought you were smarter than this...especially after what happenned with syah...i know this wont change a thing, im not writing this out of defeat, but out of my heart which still undyingly beats for you...i know i fought hard, but to know that i was easily thrown away like that, its the most painful thing i've ever felt in my life...i only wish i could turn back time so that i could end my life before even meeting you, cause if god really had something better planned, then it would be to open your eyes, cause i cant love another, not when i've dedicated my entire life to you...its painful but im bearing this with whatever little help from my friends that i have...even now, im concerned about your future, safety and whatever else...i hate this, really, i dont even want to think about it...yet its mentally torturing me till i cant sleep peacefully...i'd wake up after dreaming of you and end up breaking down again... That very much sums up what i had in my head...its easier for you to go with whatever you want, as always...i doubt things'll change...but this post was meant to let out my screams, and i doubt im done just yet...for now, this'll do...
PuNKRoCKBoi at 6:51 AM | Comment
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.:Its Who I aM:. 
Nicks:Ace, Punkrockboi, Le Nachos, Kai, Boi Ongbak Ngee Ann Poly, Bukit View Sec, Keming primary Came to tis cruel world on 22 July 1989 Thinks he's a ninja destined to save the world from an evil koala bear Cant stop chewing on his handphone Still thinks tat the moon is made of cheese Daydreams alot, so dun get angry if he's nt paying attention Overall, he's a happy kid doing wat he does best, watever tat is
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